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2009-10-04T20:25:00.002+08:00

well im back for blogging AGAIN... its been weeks... realise that my blog site is already say... 2 long YEARS! haha man... how i wish my relationship could be longer than 2 years or eternally...

This blog entry is dedicated to someone i really love the most... its barely a month since we got together and noticing that you have been angry with me over the past 3 weeks... i can explain to you my reasoning and based on my own perspective of what i think of this quarrel...

1st week of our quarrel is with someone whois once our good friend... Based on my point of view i find that its weird that you put the blame on me because you lost your good friend... Think about this... are you the only person that lost your good friend... Hes mine good friend too. I lost him... worst off... i get to see him almost every time i see him in club... but yeah... whatever! Yes it was my fault that i dint seek your consult before telling him that's because i was EXTREMELY WORRIED about you when you and your mum were quarreling over me. I was to be blamed for sending you back late which cause you to get grounded.

Secondly you argued with me over a mis communication through the phone... I expected you would arrived my house bus stop waiting for you... but it turn out that i kept you waiting for 30mins... i apologised deeply that it was MY FAULT... I AM TO BE BLAMED for... ok thats fine that you have the right to get angry with...

Yesterday... I don kow why i pissed you off so badly... but its because of my crappyness... i try to make you happy try to talk... No other ways i could think off... I tought that you will be tolerant but I failed... my angers accumulated... because i cant enjoy my weekends happily with you... I was this closed to walked off.. but i took a walked around the barraged instead...

Today i tought of it and decided to write an entry especially to you...Realised that it was all along you starting to get angry... yes i its my fault at times... but please try to be understanding that your dear is inexperience in relationship! Yes im inexperience in relationship... i haven been having once since the past 4-5years... Long? ... VERY...

I am childish and i need to grow up... YES i know... tons and thousands of people tell me that... but im trying i AM REALLY TRYING!... but i want you to know... How often do i get to see you? Once? Twice a week...? I understand youre mugging for your As... So i told you to set your periorities right... Only weekends to see me... Arent im understandable at least???

I dont mind you telling me whats wrong with me... No worries i wouldnt get offended... as long as i can change... All i want from you is loved, companion and happiness which i hoped you brighten my weekend... but i found out something... if this persists everyweek... i cant take it... I am trying to love you as much as i can... I rush down to see you when ure sick, i went to buy for you food when youre mugging took me too long to buy what food because you were sick... i have tried my very very very best to meet your needs and demands... if this cant satistified you... then Im sorry im a failure...

Screwed that little 'test'... honestly!!!... I don see why theres a little test in our relationship... If i cant pass your test... then i don think you can pass mine too... logical?? eg. you want your dear to be matured enough... i failed... i want you to be happy during weekends when i get to see you but apparently you cant... for all i know i don care about that test... i don need any 'criteria, achivements,judgement' to pass that test... for I LOVE YOU deeply as long as i Put in my best to make you be loved... as i said... I am inexperience in this relationship... therefore i need your guidance, together we could be together as happily as ever... forever...

PS: I Cut the excessived length straws that you gave me... Its a heart shape... I knew it long ago but i acted blur... i loved you...

2009-08-02T14:33:00.002+08:00

TA da!... Blogging again! and its seems that blogging is now not the IN thing anymore! quite a number of blogs are not updated... ... haha last entry was like erm... June 2008! haha when i am mugging for my As! Kinda like Lingwen's blog... haha i shall share something here...

2 Corinthians 5:19
19… God was in Christ reconciling the world to Himself, not imputing their trespasses to them…

On which two ancient cities did God rain brimstone and fire? If your answer is Sodom and Gomorrah, you are right. But if you think that God was all eager to destroy the two cities, you are wrong!

God wasn’t willing at all. He was not on a sin hunt. He was on a righteousness hunt so that He could spare the cities. (Genesis 18:23–32) And I believe that if Abraham had asked God, “What if You can find just one righteous man?” God’s answer would have been the same: “I will not destroy the place for the sake of one righteous man.”

Today, the righteousness of one Man — Jesus — has come. Jesus died for our sins and rose again for our justification. God was in Christ, reconciling the world to Himself, not counting our sins against us!

Therefore, no judgment will fall on you today because it fell on Jesus 2,000 years ago at Calvary. And if God was gracious enough to remove Lot and his family before the judgment fell (Genesis 19:12–22), how much more will He do for you who are no longer under judgment!

And because God does not judge you, don’t be like Lot’s wife, who became a pillar of salt when she turned around to look at the brimstone and fire. (Genesis 19:24–26) She wanted to see God’s judgment, even though the angels had warned, “Don’t look back, lest you be destroyed.” (Genesis 19:17)

So don’t be judgment-focused and look back at the sins you have committed. God is not against you. He is for you and on your side. He remembers that He has already judged and punished your sins in the body of His Son. And because He is faithful to His Son and to what His Son has done, He will never judge or punish you. Any trouble that you might have today is not from Him. But He will show you a way of escape because He is on your side. He loves you and has your best interests at heart.

Beloved, God is not out to get you. He is out to bless you. And He wants you blessed more than you can ever ask or imagine! (Ephesians 3:20)

ps: I LOVE Bubble Tea! haha its the IN THING IN ARMY!

Ha! I just heard another suprise news... Kristen and Weixing just got a girlfriend! 20 years of their lives and FINALLY!!! SUPPRISE! sigh... JOHN CHAN HOW ABOUT YOU??!!! hehehe!!!

2009-07-26T18:20:00.003+08:00

Family dinner is near... so i shall make it fast...

THE ZONE 2009!! haha... awesome i love it! Hillsong is here in Singapore! Praise God! Really feel the anointing presence of God in Expo! Touches those non-believers hearts as well haha the alter call and healing, off course! HEALING! haha Heal my foot rot in the name of Jesus! Heal my cough in the name of Jesus... whoohoo

I miss School! I really miss school days... I don want soc, training, outfield and Exercise Matilda! :( I just want to turn back the time and have such unforgettable memories in school! MUGGING FOR DA As!!! haha A level peeps roxs!

alright ciaos gtg... booking in timing 2230hrs! and chantel has yet to send me english songs! LOL

2009-07-19T20:40:00.002+08:00

OH im back to blog again... haha i left this blog for ages! NOW IM BACK...

Oh hoho! I got my new contact lenses! and its daily use! ha! I hope i look cool in it!

Hohoho! Im booking in soon... 2230 :) ... ... and i love today's sermon about doubts and faith! :) awesome... ... ...